Find what you love and let it kill you.
Bukowski said that.
If that’s what you’re doing and you’re able to totally immerse yourself in all the stuff this brings with it, not being able to take your mind off it for even a minute, then why do you keep looking for other things you might like?
Taking the leap is scary, sure. But not taking the leap will just keep you indecisive – uncertain on where to go next.
There’s magic in boldness so just make the mental decision. There’s only so much time.
What’s the worst thing that could happen? Will it kill you? Probably not. Ask yourself that question and you’ll see that what you’re feeling right now is based on just that: feelings.
False perceptions crept into your mind because you did not let the logos do it’s job by looking at things as they are.
You were around them, listened to them and let them influence you – for a moment their stresses poisoned your state of tranquillity and you got lost in the turmoil.
You know that this is what they are like. They would like to be understood, to be reminded that they have peers, that you share their worldview. You know this. So why do you let this bother you?
Continually remind yourself of what Marcus said:
When you wake up in the morning, tell yourself: the people I deal with today will be meddling, ungrateful, arrogant, dishonest, jealous and surly. They are like this because they can’t tell good from evil. But I have seen the beauty of good, and the ugliness of evil, and have recognized that the wrongdoer has a nature related to my own – not of the same blood and birth, but the same mind, and possessing a share of the divine. And so none of them can hurt me. No one can implicate me in ugliness. Nor can I feel angry at my relative, or hate him. We were born to work together like feet, hands and eyes, like the two rows of teeth, upper and lower. To obstruct each other is unnatural. To feel anger at someone, to turn your back on him: these are unnatural.